Slow and Steady

Today I saw a father and his daughters enjoying breakfast together. The daughters spoke joyfully about their classes and their new friends at college and their dad was present, asking questions about their friends and studies. And I couldn’t help but be reminded that this is something I didn’t nor wouldn’t ever be able to experience.

Who knows if he had lived if this scenario would have even happened, but the opportunity doesn’t even exist because of the decision he made. It had nothing to do with the choices I made or make today – neither will change the fact that he is permanently gone. The opportunity is permanently gone. I guess you could say it’s a positive thing that I know there is nothing I could have done to change the situation. This does not take away the pain or grief of knowing that the opportunities those daughters have, I do not.

How do you deal with the permanence of death when your dreams involve life?

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“The lights go out, I am all alone
All the trees outside are buried in the snow
I spend my night dancing with my own shadow
And it holds me and it never lets me go

I move slow and steady
But I feel like a waterfall
Yeah, I move slow and steady
Past the ones that I used to know

My dear old friend, take me for a spin
Two wolves in the dark, running in the wind
I’m letting go, but I’ve never felt better
Passing by all the monsters in my head

I move slow and steady
But I feel like a waterfall
Yeah, I move slow and steady
Past the ones that I used to know

And I’m never ready
‘Cause I know, I know, I know
That time won’t let me
Show what I want to show”

Of Monsters and Men – Slow and Steady

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